Some people in my life including old friends and family may wonder what I am thinking or why I choose to live my life in the way that I do...making the decisions I do and valuing the things that I do.
There is a clear and concise reason for me.
I am a very conscious observer of my own life and the way the universe affects it. Over the years I have seen proof that the Universe wants me to stand on a perverbial "X" on the ground. I do not know what I am waiting for or why I must stand here. What I do know is that throughout my life both certain achievements and certain misfortunes have been blocked from reaching me by powers beyond my control. In my life I have felt guided as if by some unseen hand to do certain things and to walk in a certain direction. I recognize, and have so for many years, that this place I find myself in has been a constant since childhood. I am here and I wait confidently for whatever is meant to come. I will not move from this place I am in and I will not allow social, religious, political, cultural, or any other form of pressure move me from where I am. I will continue to work hard on the tasks the universe sets before me as well as ignoring the ones that are not placed before me. I feel very confident in this...even if it is delusion, I have chosen mine.